Still, I had to admit, if there was ever a time in which I yearned for a spa treatment, this was it. I was extremely fortunate—I had a job and a home, and I had remained healthy, as had my family, and while I’d hardly left my house in months, I knew that being able to hunker down was in itself a privilege. And yet I was also climbing the God first family second then Knights football shirt walls. The uncertainty and precariousness, the constant struggle to juggle work and childcare, and the lack of real-life engagement and community had all taken a toll, and I was depressed and anxious. I had barely slept a full night in months, and my shoulders were permanently hunched around my ears—perhaps the only reminder that I still had a body. (As for a face, forget it!) “People are scared, people are tired, and people are desperate for touch,” Kathy Van Ness, the COO of the famed Golden Door in San Marcos, California, which, as I write, is planning to reopen in early September, told me when I spoke to her over the phone about spas in the age of COVID-19. “Our clients want to feel better.” I decided to take the plunge closer to home.